Tuesday, July 20, 2010
Embracing All Things Scary
Last week's training was pretty solid. If you are a new reader, I'm training for the Bear Chase 50k on October 3 - my first ultra. Here's what the last week looked like:
Monday: 4.07 miles
Tuesday: 6.02 miles
Wednesday: off (planned)
Thursday: 6.05 miles
Friday: 2.06 miles
Saturday: 16.03 miles
Sunday: 6.0 miles
Total Miles: 40.23 miles
This week's training started with a bang! Well Monday was a rest day. And today, Tuesday - A 2 mile time trial. It revealed that I'm 30 seconds slower than I was a year and a half ago. I wish I had more recent data on more recent 2 mile time trials, but I can't find it. I knew I wasn't going to be magically faster - I just don't have the miles and speedwork in at this point. I feared the information, but I still showed up...
Anyhow, it is what it is. Boy, how I hate that expression. However, its the truth. I can make excuses or I can embrace it. So I'm embracing it. Embracing the fact that I am not fit as I once was. Embracing that I have a lot of work ahead to get where I want to be. Embracing the doubt of whether I'll get to where I want to be. And I remind myself, its just a snap shot of where I am today. Come October 3, I'll be in a different place.
Today also starts 10 days of running. I'm embracing my training plan as well. Honestly, I asked my Coach first if this was "for real" or had he made a mistake. So I tried to get out of it before truly embracing it. I know 10 days of running will require focus, stretching, icing, sleep and good eats. I will be embracing all of that! When I saw 10 days of running, I immediately went to fearing injury. But instead, I am embracing the gains in strength and power that I will feel at the end of 10 days.
Tomorrow I am headed to Cortez, Colorado. I have fabulous water clients down there. And I had an option. Fly commercial or fly in my boss' two seater plane. Here's a picture of his plane:
I call it the bumble bee. It looks far bigger in this picture than in real life. My first inclination was to fly commercial because I was so frightened when I went up in the plane last time. But then I decided to embrace the fear and conquer it. So if you don't hear from me, then you know I should have honored my fear because we crashed into the side of a mountain. Seriously though, for many many years I hid behind an extra 100 pounds of weight because I was afraid. So each time I embrace a challenge or fear in a way that lets me try to conquer it instead of letting it conquer me, I feel like I'm making up for lost time and showing myself that I won't live a life directed by fear.
One of my favorite quotes that might sum up my intentions:
Life is not a journey to the grave with the intention of arriving safely with a pretty and well-preserved body, but rather a skid in broadside, throughly used up, totally worn out and loudly proclaiming: "Wow! What a ride!"
I wish I knew who said this to give them well-deserved props!
I know I promised a post of goals. That one will have to wait until next time. Have a great day!